kzb123 wrote: [QUOTE=marinaew]this is just a random thought that i had when i looked in the mirror today.. i have NEVER in my life looked as haggard, tired, and old as i have in the past couple of months. i haven’t even had time to process whether or not i’m suffering from ppd, because every second i have is spent trying to make my daughter feel better, holding her, calling or emailing docs or a few select family/friends about her, etc etc. and after yet another person commented to me yesterday “you look..tired…”, i realized..i look like sh1t ALL THE TIME!! and what’s funny is, i don’t even really care or notice it most of the time. hopefully when this all resolves itself in the coming year (hopefully), i’ll actually be able to do things like work out, put on makeup, sleep longer than 2 hours at a time, listen to other people’s problems and provide sound advice the way i used to be able to…/rant
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I know exactly how you feel I havent worn makeup since pregnancy, my hair has been falling out like crazy dont know if it is from the stress or the Mirena I had put in in October! Thank God my hubby is so accepting of me looking this way. I know we have to try at least to look good for them but Its been impossible. Unconditional Love is a beautiful thing! I mostly have on my pj pants since after I got sick and lost my breast milk the weight started packing on. Reason i got the Mirena was because I found out when i was 5mths pregnant that Katie had a 3rd degree heart block and my Lupus caused it. So I carry this burden on myself everyday! Docs told me to abort when I was 5mths but i said no i had never been pregnant and married for 8 years. we really wanted this baby. they kept telling me she would have heart failure in utero and when she was born need a pacemaker. Thank God neither happened. Heart Block is still there her rate is really low especially when asleep but cardio not concerned. biggest problem is this damn reflux! So not to risk all this with another child I got the Mirena. didnt want to tie tubes because didnt know what was gonna happen with katie. So I also feel like i am and have been depressed since I was 5mths pregnant! I think I need some anti depressants. Anyone on any of them? <SPAN style=”FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: ‘Calibri’,’sans-serif’; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: ‘Times New Roman’; mso-ansi-: EN-US; mso-fareast-: EN-US; mso-bidi-: AR-SA”><?:namespace prefix = v ns = “urn:schemas-microsoft-com:vml” /><v:shape id=_x0000_t75 stroked=”f” filled=”f” path=”m@4@5l@4@11@9@11@9@5xe” o:preferrelative=”t” o:spt=”75″ coordsize=”21600,21600″> <v:stroke joinstyle=”miter”></v:stroke><v:ulas><v:f eqn=”if lineDrawn pixelLineWidth 0″></v:f><v:f eqn=”sum @0 1 0″></v:f><v:f eqn=”sum 0 0 @1″></v:f><v:f eqn=”prod @2 1 2″></v:f><v:f eqn=”prod @3 21600 pixelWidth”></v:f><v:f eqn=”prod @3 21600 pixelHeight”></v:f><v:f eqn=”sum @0 0 1″></v:f><v:f eqn=”prod @6 1 2″></v:f><v:f eqn=”prod @7 21600 pixelWidth”></v:f><v:f eqn=”sum @8 21600 0″></v:f><v:f eqn=”prod @7 21600 pixelHeight”></v:f><v:f eqn=”sum @10 21600 0″></v:f></v:ulas><v:path o:connect=”rect” gradientshapeok=”t” o:extrusionok=”f”></v:path><?:namespace prefix = o ns = “urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:office” /><o:lock aspectratio=”t” v:ext=”edit”></o:lock></v:shape><SPAN style=”FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: ‘Calibri’,’sans-serif’; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: ‘Times New Roman’; mso-ansi-: EN-US; mso-fareast-: EN-US; mso-bidi-: AR-SA”><v:shape id=_x0000_t75 stroked=”f” filled=”f” path=”m@4@5l@4@11@9@11@9@5xe” o:preferrelative=”t” o:spt=”75″ coordsize=”21600,21600″> <v:stroke joinstyle=”miter”></v:stroke><v:ulas><v:f eqn=”if lineDrawn pixelLineWidth 0″></v:f><v:f eqn=”sum @0 1 0″></v:f><v:f eqn=”sum 0 0 @1″></v:f><v:f eqn=”prod @2 1 2″></v:f><v:f eqn=”prod @3 21600 pixelWidth”></v:f><v:f eqn=”prod @3 21600 pixelHeight”></v:f><v:f eqn=”sum @0 0 1″></v:f><v:f eqn=”prod @6 1 2″></v:f><v:f eqn=”prod @7 21600 pixelWidth”></v:f><v:f eqn=”sum @8 21600 0″></v:f><v:f eqn=”prod @7 21600 pixelHeight”></v:f><v:f eqn=”sum @10 21600 0″></v:f></v:ulas><v:path o:connect=”rect” gradientshapeok=”t” o:extrusionok=”f”></v:path><o:lock aspectratio=”t” v:ext=”edit”></o:lock></v:shape></SPAN></SPAN>
wow, that was quite a story..you’ve been through a LOT. congrats on your lo being healthy (other than the reflux, lol)..
you could definitely have some depression going on. ppd is common anyway, and i imagine that adding situational depression (caring for special needs baby) could exacerbate that. i have taken anti-d’s in the past, but am currently opting to not take any because i’m still nursing exclusively and don’t feel comfortable with the lack of information out there about safety of taking anti-d’s and nursing.. in the past though, i have had success with lexapro and wellbutrin (taken both together). maybe you should find a good doctor that’s covered by your insurance (hoping you have some?), and see about getting a script and trying it out.. or you could just ask a family doctor, or even your ob/gyn can prescribe (that’s where i always got mine)..
for non-medicinal relief, i always find that getting out and doing something along the lines of exercise helps me feel better. my mom told me for years that if i exercised regularly, i’d feel much better, and when i finally got off my arse and started doing it, i discovered she was right.
and yes, thank god for partners that accept us the way we are, no makeup, hair up in an oily ponytail, pajamas, etc.. lol actually though, i think looking better helps me feel better..it’s not so much about what hubby thinks, but if i look bad, i tend to feel a little worse. i hope that doesn’t sound vain or anything, i really don’t spend a lot of time looking in the mirror no matter what’s going on in my life LOL..
good luck with everything!
as for slings: finally have been getting dd to do the bjorn facing OUT. she HAS to be facing out and see what’s going on. she does not at all like being mushed up against me. so we’ll stick with this until she outgrows it at 25 pounds. the moby looks complicated to me, but that’s b/c i know how hard it is for me to catch on to new things like that. it took me about 30 minutes to figure out how to get her into the bjorn. how sad. haha
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have you tried babywearing? it SAVED us. SAVED.many babies seem to plateau on zantac. have we helped you figure out the hightest dose for her weight?I used to have to even take a SHOWER wearing jonah! I had a solerveil sling- you can wear it in the shower- there are posts around here somewhere,lol. it does get better!
laura.. how do u put them upright in the hotsling? a 6 week old never theless.and yes, i feel/look like crap too!! 😉
I’ll look for photos, too, LOL! not sure I have a photo of upright in sling? it’s called ‘tummy to tummy’ OK so found phtos but they’re on photoworks 9used to be on aol then mved to photoworks bcse of aol) and I can’t figure out how to post them- links don’t work- so then I tried finding them on my computer and putting them on photobucket- too hard to find!so this is all I’ve got, LOL!here’s ari in a hug-a-bub (‘original’ moby, lol)-he’s just about a month old here- looks like he’s gonna pop out! nah!!! he didn’twant his head covered & he made it clear (this particular moment- other babywearing moments I could cover his head):
in a mei tai here:
How do you put a pic on here?
