Hide And Seek, Quinn

Okay, so Quinn and I play this game called hide and seek. First it
started with me hiding and her coming to find me and then I pop out and
scare her, then she squeals and “runs” as fast as she can. Normally,
she falls, but it’s too cute how much she tries. Well, she has been
getting really good at it and hides behind doors and in between corners
and stays very very quiet until I see her. She even started to shut
doors. She thinks it’s a lot of fun when I pretend that I can’t see
her…. and say Oh, Quinn, Where Are You???

ANYWAYS…
today, we were at the pediatrician’s office for our follow up weight
check and all that stuff, and when I was checking out.. I swear, she
was in my view. I was watching her. It only took two seconds of me
paying attention to the lady who was making our appointment and I turn
around and I can’t see her anymore. I thought she was just bending down
or something. She was in the waiting room playing with the toys and she
must have turned the corner and went back into the back where all the
exam rooms are. I asked the other moms in the waiting room and they
said she turned the corner. I just up and left what I was doing at the
desk and ran into the back to look for her. I was asking patients if
they’d seen a little baby anywhere, I looked in every exam room in the
offices. I know all the ladies at the office so when I said that Quinn
was missing, they immediately stopped what they were doing to help me
find her. I was yelling Quinn… QUINN Where are you!!!??? Which is
what I do when she is hiding from me… so that didn’t help… not like
she was going to say anything right. After about five minutes or so, I
heard her crying. then she started screaming. It was coming from beyond
this door and she was screaming bloody murder. The door was locked! so
(I’ll make up a name) Stacy ran to go and find the keys. By this time
her doctor was wondering what was going on and then we open the door
and there is Quinn, scared as all H***. She locked her self in the
supply closet. She must have been hiding from me. Everybody had a good
laugh and once my heart stopped beating a mile a minute I laughed too.
We ended up making our appointment and Miss Quinn thought it was so
much fun… besides the dark.

This is clear indication that
Quinn is doing quite well. She has so much more energy now to do fun
little stuff like hide in supply closets. And she has been sooooo
rotten!!! Okay Tammy, now i know what you were talking about when you
said that Kristin was being rotten. She has been hitting me, knocking
things off shelves if she can reach. Pulling everything out of the
cupboards, pulling the TP off the roll in the bathroom, and stealing
toys from kids her age, pushing and shoving, screaming throwing temper
tantrums. She won’t even let me change her diaper without putting up a
heck of a fight. She is driving me NUTS!! AAAAHHHH!!! She has been
throwing all of her food to the floor, and she screams if I don’t give
her what she wants… mostly juice. she HAS to have juice all day long,
but the thing is, she drinks too much. That’s all she would have all
day long if I didn’t limit her intake. And this has just been lately.
Not more than two weeks ago I was forcing fluids into her body and now
this. Be careful what you wish for, right? I’m so glad that she is
doing better. You g-tube moms were right. She’s really taking off. But
she is choking and gagging lots so we still have plans for the Nissen.

So,
you guys ready to hear what the doctor said??? He emphasized how big of
a decision this was. He KNOWS I’ve held off on this long enough and
that we’ve tried everything before the g-tube. But he is certain that I
made the right decision. And he said that he was proud of me for making
such a huge decision for Quinn. I almost got teary eyed. I don’t know
how many people go through this, but just seeing Quinn with that tube
in her belly…. sometimes I feel so down about it. Sometimes I just
wish she could be a normal kid. I wish that nobody had to go through
this kind of stuff and even though I know we tried everything, I always
wonder if there was something else we didn’t try or if she just needed
a little more time. But to see how well she is doing… to watch her
thrive and grow and look so much healthier is the ultimate gift. It’s
only been what… two weeks and she’s already doing so well. I can only
imagine what it will be like a month from now. I know there is so much
more we have to go through… many more challenges will come along the
way and she still has some catching up to do, but those are just small
obstacles we have to get through, but Quinn is so strong and she is my
strength.

She’s 16 months old. Quinn weighed in today at 21
pounds! Wow… we’ve gained two pounds since admission to the hospital
this last time. When she got her g-tube placed, she was around the 5th
percentile in weight. She’s gotta be around the 25th now, I think. And
she is 30 inches long. She’s pretty tall. Just about a month ago, I
think, she was still 29 inches. So she’s grown a whole inch. Things are
looking up!

Thanks for bearing with me through this long long entry.

-Sarah